I’ve had an anxiety disorder (slight bit of depression) just about my entire life…. I didn’t actually start getting any help for it until two years ago. School and being out around groups of people are what get me anxious. So… I guess you could call it social anxiety…? I pretty much stopped going to school because it was impossible for me. What came along with it? Losing friends. That pretty much put the icing on the cake. It wasn’t fun. I had figured while all of this was happening that my ‘friends’ would be there for me…. well, since ya know… I was there for them through all of their problems. I was wrong. VERY wrong. They all pretty much kicked me out of their lives. It hurt… simple as that. Sometimes still does. Why wouldn’t it? So… during this two year period I started seeing someone and was put on Zoloft. My amazing parents (even though my dad still doesn’t 100% understand) helped me through it and I started getting homeschooled. My sister and her amazing friends took me under their wing and have helped me through some of it too =) I appreciate everything my family and friends have done to help and support me. I still don’t 100% understand my anxiety… probably won’t for a long time, but I’ve gotten better over the past two years. It hasn’t been easy. Believe me, it hasn’t. If you have anxiety… you know what I’m talking about. If you haven’t gotten any support or help, get it. It may not ‘fix it’… but it sure will help. For you to eventually understand your anxiety (you can never really stop it… it’s always there) you have to help yourself. If anyone wants to talk about anxiety or depression, message me. I hope I can help in some way. Who knows? Maybe I will? Well… thanks for reading to anyone who does. Have a great day =)
